18 March, 2014

Confessions

I'm having writer's block today so decided to switch it up and write about my confessions. These are always my favorite posts on other blogs so here's mine!

*Theo and I met when I was 19 and he was 20. I was working at Outback Steakhouse and he came in one night to eat. His cousin was hostessing with me that night and I told her to give him my #. I've never been that bold in my life but it worked and the rest is history.

*My parents divorced when I was in 6th grade and I have no communication with my dad at all. Best thing my mom could have done. 

*I'm a true "south paw" and swear if someone cut my right arm I'd go on just fine. Now, if someone cut off my left arm I'd be disabled for life.

*My senior year of high school we had to do a project on what we wanted to be when we grow up. I did it on a nurse only because I didn't know what else to do. I really didn't have any desire to be a nurse I just needed to pass the assignment. It wasn't until I was 21 and realized I needed to do something with my life that I decided to go to nursing school. I'm still not sure if it's what I want to do when I grow up...

*I have a strange obsession with watching behind the scenes to movies. I love knowing how things work. I've always been that annoying person who notices the dumbest stuff in movies and pays attention to them rather than the movie. It's another reason why I wanted to go nursing school because I loved learning why the body does what it does. It's so fascinating. 

*Speaking of obsessions, I have an obsessive mind and always have. Whether it be clothes, a show, a book, it's always something and it changes week to week. Last week it was washing my bras every 2-3 days. Yah, it's now been 5 days and they haven't been washed. Definitely not a good quality to have. I get so passionate about something then I'm over it. This blog has been the longest running "obsession" I've ever had. 

*I've always had a strong love for magical things. Probably started from me jumping off the fireplace as a little girl thinking I could fly like Peter Pan. We went to Harry Potter World a few years ago and I about died and went to heaven. Not too big on the books or the movies, but the theme park was amazing to me. Yes, I was that person who had an imaginary friend and played with Barbie's.

*I'm such a messy person who tries to be clean now that I own a home. I can keep the downstairs clean but the upstairs is a disaster zone. Sad thing is I'm ok with it. My mom's always said I live like a pig and I do.

*I have on obsession with shopping and love putting things in my virtual shopping bag online. The best part is waiting a few days and checking out what you put in there and realizing you never wanted it to be begin with. I'm working on my impulse buying and only buying things I don't already own. Not easy.

*I suffer from intense anxiety and no one really knows. I've always been a big worrier as a little girl, like worried my mom wouldn't show up for field trips or that she was going to die. Now that I'm older I worry I'm dying. I'm a total hypochondriac and being a nurse manifests that. I started having panic attacks when I was in nursing school and never went on meds. Alcohol brings them on a lot of times. Theo thinks I'm a nut job I know but it really is psychological and I'm working on trying to overcome it in my head. It's a big deal to me if a few days pass and I have no feelings of panic.

*I also over analyze things in my head. Especially at work. Well, really only at work. Nursing is a scary job and I work in the ICU so I always want to make sure I'm doing the right thing for the patient. It's brought out my insecurities but also made me come out of my shell.

*I'm scared of heights and I have no idea why. Nothing has ever happened to make me scared. I'm walking the Arthur Ravenel Bridge Run in a few weeks and I'm pretty nervous about it.

*I'm seriously, and I mean seriously scared of roaches. Ewwww even typing the word gives me the chills. I swear it's because my mom always was. I won't even pick them up if they're already dead. Nope not even the little ones. Thank God I have a husband who, after telling me I'm being ridiculous, will kill it and it put it down the toilet.

*I drink water like it's my job. I have a kidney disease and the doctor told me the only thing I can really do for it is to watch my blood pressure and drink 2 liters of water a day. So you can imagine I pee non stop.

*Every Wednesday morning I get a Chick Fil A chicken biscuit. It's my "yay you did it!" treat to myself for being done with work for the week.

*I fall asleep during 99% of movies we watch at home. Theo says all the time he's never going to watch another movie with me but he continues to do so and I continue to fall asleep. Unless it's a scary movie which I'm wide awake for!

This was hard to be this honest! Now that you think I'm a crazy psycho, I mean we all have our issues, I'm ready to hear yours! 




22 comments :

  1. I love learning about what the body does too - hence why I'm a nurse as well! I love my fellow nurse-bloggers!

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  2. Loved learning more about you! We have so much in common, I can be "obsessed" with things too, then get tired of them. This has probably been my longest hobby too. I'm also a big time worrier and can be panicky it's seriously bad and being a mom has made it worse! And roaches...I'm terrified, even the dead ones - because what if they're faking it, or if their little leg moves as I pick it up...ewww!! haha
    Thanks for sharing your confessions! xx

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  3. I love confessional posts, definitely a great way to get to know people better! From working in a hospital I am also the biggest hypochondriac, everything and anything scares and I am the worst about googling symptoms. I also love finding different things that I put into my online shopping carts only to look at them later and wonder what the heck I was thinking! Hope you have a great week love!

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  4. These are my favorite posts too!! You will rock the bridge walk, just stay in the middle and don't look over the edge :) At our house, Perk hates spiders so I have to do that dirty work! I like your biscuit tradition.

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  5. I seriously really really loved reading this and finding out more about you! The anxiety thing is a bummer =( I've had small amounts of anxiety here and there, but Zack gets it really bad. We've also found that alcohol is a huge trigger so recently he's basically stopped drinking altogether and he says his head is feeling clearer than he can ever remember. He still has had some panic, but it's decreased immensely. He also started seeing a therapist and was diagnosed with a panic disorder, not generalized anxiety disorder like we always thought. They say it's extremely treatable with talk therapy. I would try to talk to somebody, if you haven't already! It's not fun stuff, as I've seen firsthand from living with Zack.

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  6. Girl. My parents are divorced and I have no contact with my dad either. Best choice my mom ever made, too. And I have anxiety too! I don't have panic attacks, but I am a constant worrier and I HAVE to think of all the bad things that can happen in order to even deal with something. I have to be prepared.

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  7. These are some of my favorite posts and now I want to do one! I'm the same way with my virtual shopping bags. Realizing something was a fleeting "want" and not something that I couldn't live without is always a plus for my bank account!

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  8. Love this!!! I love how you and Theo met - I introduced my friend to her now husband that was working at Outback as well! So happy you've stuck with blogging - I look forward to all your posts! Sorry to hear about your anxiety - I honestly feel like i've developed it as I've gotten older and I totally worry about everything - so not normal for me!!

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  9. I have an obsessive mind as well....if I told you how many times I checked to see if I locked my main door....it's embarrassing for sure ;-)
    Amanda | Meet @ the Barre

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  10. You are definitely not the only one with anxiety! I have actually pretty much stopped drinking and I think it helps. I know some people are against meds but they have really helped me. Tell Theo is NORMAL!!! He can ask Chris about it...Chris knows all about it.

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  11. I love this post! So honest and interesting! I am a BIG worrier too -- about the future, about dying or how sad i would be if my husband died -- all things you really cant control. when i get really worried about something i try to think about a quote i saw on pinterest (corny i know) -- but it said, "worrying is like praying for something you dont want" eh. right. will try to work on that! :) :) good luck with your walk on the bridge, it'll be great. just look forward the whole time! xo jillian - cornflake dreams

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  12. Haha not a crazy psycho at all! I think lots of us struggle with a lot of similar things but like the quote said it's our "secret life". My mom passed away almost 10 years ago and I've struggled with anxiety/fears of dying/sickness a lot before and since then. It's not fun but know you aren't alone!!

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  13. So fun! I love these confessions posts!

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  14. HATE roaches, HATE heights, but LOVE roller coasters and the South. Guess I'm screwed ha. Great post; it's always fun to learn more about your favorite people!

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  15. Thank you for sharing! It's great to get more insight into who you are :)

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  16. I adore you! You keep it real friend! I sometimes wish I became a nurse but the thought of poking people with needles amongst other things freaks me out. So grateful for people like you!

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  17. Love confessions! You should be an extra in a TV show or movie. You get to see all the behind the scenes stuff and how much it takes for one episode or even a 5 minute clip to make it to the screen. I currently have 3 tabs open on my computer with items in shopping carts. When I finally decide to pull the trigger, they'll be sold out. Happens every time!

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  18. i am a new 'follower'. I love your honesty and that you find humour in all aspects of your life. You say it best.....'Life as i know it'. Keep knowing it.

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  19. This was such a great post and I'm glad I fell upon your blog today. I feel like I share some of your confessions and wonder if some of them come about as we get older and wiser. Like the anxiety and heights. I have my moments with both of those by try to overcome when I can. Happy I found your blog.
    Shenine @ bemusedsheninejoon.blogspot.com

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  20. I love this! Thanks for sharing such wonderful details about your life!

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  21. You and I are pretty much the same person. Seriously.... I got into nursing the same way, I love listening to the movie commentaries, and I also get on kicks for a week or two at a time where I'm obsessed with something.

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